Grub worms

I've recently read the book "Believing God" by Beth Moore and it really challenged me on what I believe about God and that I do believe Him. One of my favorite quotes from the book is "We have no idea who we are dealing with". I've also read a book of late called "Exodus" by Leon Uris, it talks about the sufferings of the Jews quite a bit and I began to wonder - why?
Why did 8 million Jews have to die? Why did the Egyptians chasing Moses have to die in the Red Sea? Sometimes I have thoughts that I don't outright ask Him, but just wonder about. But He knows my thoughts and every now and then chooses to answer His child. He doesn't have to answer me... I haven't even asked really. The other thing I learned from that book is that He is THE KING! He doesn't have to answer to us, explain to us, etc. This is not a democracy! He is in TOTAL CONTROL! On one hand that's hard for someone like me (control freak), on the other it's a relief... if only I trust Him! Anyway, back to the grub worms... so the other day I was spreading some mulch for Dad. There was quite a few grub worms in it and I knew they were bad for his garden, and I knew I had to kill them. I do not like killing grub worms... they squish and all this liquid comes out... it's nasty! After killing a few it hit me... God doesn't like having to kill His creation either! But He knows what's good for His garden and what has to go. The grubs were not my creation and I did not hear the sounds of the other grub worms crying at the their friends death. I had a new respect for God. This is His creation and His garden, He knows what's best for it and what has to go. I don't always understand, but then I'm don't need to and I'm pretty sure my little brain couldn't fathom it all.

One other thing I learned from the book by Beth Moore is to write down your "God spots" - I think that's what she called them. This is one of them.